Author Archives: nicolaascpaulsen

I am free (4)

We need it so much to not feel rejected while we are struggling with our difficult bodies. It’s not necessary for everyone to love me. The very fact that I can show the world who I am, with my words, is enough for me.. Getting to where I am now is a process. Time has been merciful to us. We can now look back and say that we took the time we got and healed.

Ek is vry (4)

Ons het dit so nodig om nie verwerp te voel terwyl ons so sukkel met ons moeilike lywe nie .Dit is nie nodig dat almal van my hou nie. Die blote feit dat ek vir die wereld kan wys wie ek is, met my woorde, is vir my genoeg. Om te kom tot waar ek nou is, is ‘n proses. Tyd was ons genadig, want ons kan nou terugkyk en sê dat ons die tyd gevat het wat ons gekry het en gesond geraak het.

I am free (3)

Knowing all the things that affect my body is my best way to get more control of my body. And more control over my body means a better life for me. Being able to make my own decisions, and allow me to say what I want, is the greatest form of honor and respect I have ever received in my life.

Ek is vry (3)

Kennis van al die goed wat my lyf beïnvloed, is my beste manier om meer beheer oor my lyf te kry. En meer beheer oor my lyf beteken ‘n beter lewe vir my. Om my eie besluite te kan neem, en my toe te laat om my eie sê te sê, is die grootste vorm van eer en respek wat ek nog ooit ontvang het in my lewe.

I am free (2)

My acceptance of myself was an important step on my path to Freedom from my prison of anxiety and fear. My acceptance of myself would not have been possible without: faith, communication, knowledge about why my body works the way it works. Before I knew why my body is so difficult to control, it made me very depressed and anxious. Now that I understand why my body doesn’t work like other people’s, I’m much calmer about it and when I’m calm, I can actually get more done with my body.

I am free (1)

Acceptance, the key out of my prison. PART 1 (OF 4) This is a translation of the original blog written in Afrikaans. Anxiety is no longer my prison. Anxiety has always been my biggest enemy. He is no more. My anxiety about my inability to show that I am a human being, with a brainContinue reading “I am free (1)”

EK IS VRY (1)

Angs is nie meer my tronk nie. Ek was ‘n slaaf van vrees. My aanvaarding van myself was ‘n belangrike stap op hierdie pad na Vryheid. My hart is rustig oor my verlede en my pad vorentoe.

A lot has changed since I can communicate.

April 2022 Please note: I am still non-speaking. Here follows a translation of a blog originally written in Afrikaans by Nicolaas This holiday was all so different from what it was in the years I couldn’t communicate that it’s hard for me to believe that this is not just a beautiful dream I’m living. BeingContinue reading “A lot has changed since I can communicate.”